I Just Need Some Saving

So yeah it's almost been a year now. I think I'm slipping back into that depressed mood I always used to be in. How much longer do I have to live with this? I'm done waiting, I just want it to be over already. I want to fast forward my life until college. People really don't get it. But that's okay. I just need for someone to listen. And this is how I vent. This feeling....it's like I've been in pain for almost a year now without it ever stopping. This pain....it's in my heart. Will it ever repair? Probably not. I am forever scarred. Will I ever forget? Probably not. I am forever scarred. Will I try to forget? Well I've been trying for almost a year now and it's not working out so well. I will not succumb to this pain. I will not give in. Even though I almost did tonight. It's gonna be hard, but I will go through it. People say it gets better for a lot of things, well this is something that will never get better. It is always here and will never go away. I just wanna make it all go away. I wanna rip my emotions out of my heart and burn it till it's gone. But sadly that's not possible, so I'm gonna get through this...I hope.