Ugh

You know what I hate? When I tell a friend I'm on a diet and they tell me to stop and that I'm skinny. Okay first of all I'm doing it for the health reasons. Second I'm not in any way skinny, so don't lie it makes me feel much worse about myself. Instead of telling me to stop, how about you start supporting me?! You're suppose to be my friend and you're making everything much worse. Either do that or don't say anything at all.

You

your smile
your laugh
your eyes
your humor
your sweetness
your amazingness
your walk
your talk
your hair
your dimples
your voice
you

Motivation

You need motivation? How about every time you're about to quit, every time you think you've had enough and that it's not worth it, think about your goal. Think about why you're doing this in the first place. Think about how much better life would be if you achieved this goal. Think about all the things that you could do if you accomplished this objective. Think about what people would think of you after this. Think of the pros instead of the cons. Make a bracelet that will remind you of your aim. Get a tattoo or carry something that will motivate you to keep on trying. Anything that will help you to reach your intent.

I Just Need Some Saving

So yeah it's almost been a year now. I think I'm slipping back into that depressed mood I always used to be in. How much longer do I have to live with this? I'm done waiting, I just want it to be over already. I want to fast forward my life until college. People really don't get it. But that's okay. I just need for someone to listen. And this is how I vent. This feeling....it's like I've been in pain for almost a year now without it ever stopping. This pain....it's in my heart. Will it ever repair? Probably not. I am forever scarred. Will I ever forget? Probably not. I am forever scarred. Will I try to forget? Well I've been trying for almost a year now and it's not working out so well. I will not succumb to this pain. I will not give in. Even though I almost did tonight. It's gonna be hard, but I will go through it. People say it gets better for a lot of things, well this is something that will never get better. It is always here and will never go away. I just wanna make it all go away. I wanna rip my emotions out of my heart and burn it till it's gone. But sadly that's not possible, so I'm gonna get through this...I hope.

Hello

Okay so someone told me I need to write more of my story, but I just can't right now. First of all, I have no inspiration or motivation to write, and second of all, I've been way too busy with homework. So I'm very sorry about that. I'll try to write when I can.

How To Lose Weight

You know what makes me mad? When I see so many people that are starving them selves just to lose weight! Let me be the one to tell you that that does not work. If you put your body into starvation mode, it lowers your metabolism and makes losing weight a lot more difficult. It's funny cause I see these people doing that and not even losing a pound and here I am, down almost 10 pounds in like a month! If you're like me and hate exercise and love eating, it's really difficult to lose weight. I used to have a really big stomach capacity so I would be hungry ALL THE TIME!

So I tried to just exercise and eat whatever I wanted. It really didn't work out for me. So I tried going on a 1200 calorie diet. It was hard at first but I just kept drinking water to make myself feel full. After a while my stomach capacity shrunk and it was easier for me to eat less. What I would do was eat every 3 hours. So breakfast at 9am, lunch at 12pm, snack at 3pm, dinner at 6pm, and tea at 9pm. That was over the summer but now that school has started and I have to wake up earlier, the schedule went a little off but I'm working that out right now. In every meal I try not to exceed 300 calories and every snack I try not to exceed 100 calories. Now if you go over 1200 calories, that's totally fine! I went 700 calories over 1200 on my first try! But you eventually get it, trust me! And it's okay if every once in a while you have a high calorie meal or snack, you don't wanna make this a bad experience.

Now even though I am losing weight without having to do exercise, it doesn't mean that's necessarily a good thing. When I get skinny I don't wanna be like those people that are skinny but have squishy stomachs, I want a toned stomach and nice legs, so I am going to start doing exercise beside school P.E. I'm also going to join the Volleyball team next year.

Fist Day Of School

So high school...oh my god. It's morning and I'm almost late for the bus and then after I get on the bus it started going on a different direction than my school so I started freaking out because I thought I was on the wrong one but it turns out there was an accident so the bus driver took another route. So when I first walk in to the school, a bunch of guys checked me out...okay cool now leave me the fuck alone. I get my schedule and find out that I have no classes with anyone and even though I got to school early, I didn't have time to look for my classes, but the campus was really easy to figure out so yeah.
I go into my first class (Geometry) and found out that there is only a handful of Freshmen and the rest are Sophomores and Juniors and I only know one kid in the class. We go to the assembly, and I have to sit next to this hot sophomore kid and so yeah...he was hot. In The assembly, they wanted the Freshmen to stand up and do the battle cry but like no one did so it was really awkward. So after the assembly we went back to class and the teacher assigns us homework. Ugh!!!
So then my next class is Honors Biology. I have this really cool teacher that gives us the weirdest nicknames and I don't even remember mine. Plus the class was full of Freshmen so it was good.
My next class was Honors English, and the teacher seemed pretty nice and I knew a lot of people in the class and she gave us homework -.-
My next class was French and I was almost late because it was like at this weird part of the school. All she did was speak French in the begging but I understood a little bit. Then she talked in English and she said we were going to eat French food so yeah that's all I remember.
After that I had lunch under this big tree with some of my friends so it was nice. and then I had my 3D animation class which was pretty cool.
Then I had PE and we didn't do anything but talk. After school I go to the front and I didn't know which bus to take. So I see some kids form the morning, but they don't know which it is either, but we eventually found it and I found out that the hot guy is on my bus and he gets off at the same station as me and he lives close to me and I sound like a fucking stalker but that's alright. But it was super hot in the bus and walking home form the bus but yeah over all the day was good :) I thought I would hate it just like all the other years, but I didn't so yeah...bye?

Man Decapitates 7 Year Old Son Who Suffered From Cerebral Palsy

On Sunday, the police at Thibodaux, La were following up on a human head that was spotted on the road and they found a "garbage bag of body parts." They also found a man named Jeremiah Lee Wright who told them it was a CPR dummy. It wasn't, it was actually his seven-year-old son named Jori Lirette whom he'd "killed and decapitated over a kitchen sink." Jori suffered form cerebral palsy. Wright was "stoic, emotionless, non-confrontational" according to the police. He's been charged with first-degree murder and will probably face the death penalty.
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Bucket List

So for the past year or so I have been obsessed with Vidcon and Warped Tour and various other tours (this is the second year in a row I've missed both of them) and I have always wanted to go but my mom won't let me (I sound so lame right now). The only way she'll let me go is if I let her go with me but that is unacceptable because everyone cusses -.- Now she said something about letting me go to Warped with friends next year but I'll have to get that in writing before she changes her mind again. I know that when I get older I'll be able to go to all of them but I want to go now! Ugh, so for when I'm older I have made a bucket list of places I HAVE to go to. Let's just hope they still have those events in four years. I have the bucket list on the right below the archives.

Sugar Scrub Face Mask

I found this on here and tried it out. It's really good and it works, plus it's really easy to make! I suggest people use this and go on hiddenblemishes.tumblr.com for more stuff about skin care, loosing weight, and more!

One Year

So yeah, it has been a year since I made this blog. I just want to say thank you for reading it and putting up with me.

Heartbroken

I'm sick of it. I'm sick of everything. I tried everything and it didn't change, it actually got worse. I put myself through torture, but no, it wouldn't work. The question now is, do I give up or keep trying? Because honestly, I can't do it anymore. I don't have energy anymore. I don't have motivation anymore. And it doesn't help when you're bashing on everything I do, I get heartbroken. It hurts so much when someone I care about would say that to me. How could you? Do you have a heart? It hurts. My heart hurts.

Inspirational People

1. Christofer Drew Ingle- As some of you may know, he was in the former band NeverShoutNever! now it's Christofer Drew and the Shout....I think, I have no idea anymore. He may have fucked up at some point and lost my respect for him, but he was one of the first few people that said, fuck the world, and don't pay attention to what people say, just be your self and be happy. I used to always constantly worry about what people would think of me, but in reality, it's not really going to matter in the future, it's not going to affect me in any way, unless I let it bring down my confidence.

2. Sammi Doll- Sammi is a photographer who is also in a band called My Satellite, and she is currently engaged (yay!) to Jinxx from Black Veil Brides. She is one of the coolest, nicest people I have ever known. She gives such great advise to people on Formspring and I really appreciate her for taking her time and going through like 1,000 questions a week. She has a very busy schedule but is always making time for her fans.

3. Alex Evans- A lot of people know him as an internet celebrity, and that's all. However, if  you read his blog, you can see that he has an interesting view of things. His writing is great and it inspires me. Also his photography encourages me to be more creative.

4. Andy Biersack- Andy is the lead singer/screamer of the band Black Veil Brides. He is one of those people that taught me to just be myself and never give in.

Chapter 4

           The lunch bell rang, I sat at my usual spot with two of my friends. My only friends. Nikki is the typical mainstream preppy girl you can find shopping at an Abercrombie & Fitch or Hollister, I know, you’re wondering why in the world would me, of all people, be friends with her, well you see, she used to be best friends with Marissa, until in the 8th grade where the incident happened, she doesn't really want me to talk about it. So yeah ever since she left the group, we've been best friends, I'm still trying to get her to listen to good music, but she's won't give it a chance. One day, I will change her! Anyway, Hayden is my other best friend, he's gay and fucking awesome. We've been friends since the 2nd grade. 

           I was in the middle of eating a Nutella sandwich when Darren just decided to sit with us at lunch. Ummmmm...what??

                “Hey guys, what’s up?” he said. We just continued to stare at him. “Ummm…is anything wrong?” we shook our heads and gave each other the same look. “I hope you don’t mind me sitting here, I have nowhere else to sit, I’m new to the district.”

                “Uhh we don’t mind,” I said looking down, why is he staring at me? Has he been staring at me the entire time? Where did he eat lunch yesterday? I didn’t see him at lunch yesterday. Where is his lunch?

                “Aren’t you gonna eat something?” asked Hayden.

                “I’m not really hungry. Actually, I was hoping I could see more of Hannah’s drawing,” he answered.

                “Oh I don’t really have them with me right now, so sorry,” I said.

                “That’s too bad; I was looking forward to that,”

RRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNGGG! 

            We threw away our trash and walked to class.

            “Hey Hannah! Wait up!” I turned around and it was Darren. “When do you think I can see more of your drawings?”

            “I don’t know….” I answered.

            “How about I meet you after school? In the art room?”

            “Umm sure.”

            “Awesome, I’ll see you then,” he smiled and then walked away. Oh my god, his teeth are perfect his eyes are…

            “Hey Hannah, aren’t you gonna get to class?” asked Nikki.

            “Huh? Class? Oh yeah, yes I am…” my heart won’t stop racing, what am I going to do? What if he doesn’t like my drawings anymore? What if he realizes some of them are of him? Oh shit, what am I going to do?

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3

Wow

I was reading some of the old posts on this blog and I started crying....was I really that depressing? Well I guess I'm better now that it's summer, I can relax more...

I look at my blog stats, and they say that a lot of people read this blog.....if you do then why don't you fucking comment so I post more often....

anyway so far summer has been great, usually the first week of summer is my lazy week and I don't do anything...it has only been 6 days, but it feels like a month.

So yeah on the 22nd I'm going to see Neon Trees, so that's pretty awesome....it's kinda weird for me to not rant on here, well whatever...

CHAPTER 4 OF THE STORY IS COMING SOON

Letter To A Friend

Dear Friend,

I screwed up, I got mad and angry and after I realized that was a mistake, I was too much of a coward to say sorry. I'm not rich, my parents are getting a divorce so I'm far from it, my dad might be rich but I don't even know, I haven't seen him in 6 months.

I really don't like mainstream songs that much because they get old real fast. However, most of them have really good beats, so if I'm at a dance I will singalong to it and dance.

I never told anyone we hated each other since 6th grade, we didn't. I never pretended to be friends for Nicole, people are making up rumors that aren't true, and that really upsets me.

I don't know if you've noticed but I'm kind of an ass hole so, I don't know why anyone would ever miss me. So yeah I guess I'm sorry. I'll keep the letter forever.

-A Fucktard

My Experience At Disneyland

So every year at my school the Yearbook, Art, and Video classes take a three hour animation tour in California Adventure. We go to California Adventure for a couple of hours then go on the tour and then go to Disneyland. This year we stayed until 9pm and got back at 11pm and it was awesome.

So first when I get to school this kid poured half of a water bottle all over me and I got really pissed off and poured the rest on him. So then I started punching him in the chest and he said he was sorry but it was too late and I was angry and so I started crying.

Then when we got on the bus I had no one to sit with because I kinda hated our group so I was all alone for two hours crying because I was PMSing. Then we got there and me and two other people ditched our group and went on the Grizzly River Run, which by the way, it is so not worth getting wet for. Then we stood in line for California Screamin' and we were half way there but then they closed the ride, so we had no choice but to wait 45 minutes for the Toy Story Midway Mania and I got the highest score for the ride which was 114,600 but the high score for the day was six hundred thousand something and that seams kind of impossible for me. The we went back to California Screamin' and it was fine by then so we got on and it was so much fun so we got fast passes for later. We went to eat lunch and I brought a Subway sandwich with me, which I ate. Then we used our fast passes to cut the line and we got on. We met our group on the compass outside the park and got ready for the tour.

In the tour the lady taught us about some animation things like storyboarding and sound effects. Then we went to Ursula's Grotto and we went to talk with Crush the turtle. Afterwards we did one more activity and part of the tour was to cut the line for Tower of Terror and so we did and I purposefully sat in the front and this time, I didn't hang on to the bars, I kinda floated in my seat when the ride came down, the only thing holding me down was a little seatbelt.

Then we crossed over to Disneyland and we ate dinner first and we saw that if we wanted to get on Space Mountain and Splash Mountain we would have to wait 45 minutes and if we wanted to get fast passes it would have been for 10:30pm and we had to get back by 9pm. So we went in line for Matterhorn Bobsleds and it was really short because it was broken but it got fixed in time. Afterwards we went on the Big Thunder Mountain Railroad and it was fun so we got fast passes for 7:50-8:50pm and so we went shopping for awhile and I got a cool white Disneyland hat and a white leather bracelet with my name engraved on it. Then we went on the Big Thunder Mountain Railroad ride again and it was like 8:40 and we had to get back to the front of the park in 20 minutes. This time the ride was five times faster and it stopped in the middle of the ride and we started to freak out because we had to get back by nine, but then it started again and I swear, this was the loudest ride ever! Everyone was screaming (for fun, not because they were scared) and had their arms up. So then after the ride we started to run to the front of the park and we kinda had a laughing fit.

Afterwards, we were on the bus and we saw the fireworks and then we left and I made some cool 7th grade friends. When we arrived at school I had to go to the bathroom so me and my friend used the teacher's bathroom and we found perfume in there and she sprayed it in my eye. But yeah overall fun day.

So I have a question for everyone

What do you do if for example you like person A, and then stop liking person A and you start liking person B and then you start liking Person A again, so you like both of them. They always say choose the second person because if you really liked the first person, you wouldn't like the second person in the first place. So my question is, who's the second person in this situation.

I Give Up

You know what?? I give up. I give up life, I give up trying. I don't care about anything anymore. Since you want to control my life, then what's the point? Right now, NOTHING can cheer me up. MY LIFE IS FUCKING OVER. All I'm going to do all day is study and get straight A's again, until you're happy, until I finally turn 18 and do whatever the fuck I wanna do.

I Really Hate My Life Right Now

My life is crumbling into pieces.
I'm useless so I'm hopeless.
I know it'll be better in time but what about now?
I have to keep myself busy, so I can forget about all the pain that this has caused me.
It's easy to do that at school, but what about at home?
How am I supposed to distract myself at a place where most of the bad things have happened?
How am I supposed to keep from crying, when you keep reminding me of it, of how much you keep trying to help us, but the pain he is causing you, is killing you.
I love him, but I hate him.
I miss him, but I never wanna see him.
It's starting to slowly kill me too.

Regrets and Basketball?

So on Friday I was watching a bunch of kids playing basketball, and I saw this 'tall' kid knock some other kid's glasses off right when he was about to shoot. The glasses dropped and he didn't make it. I just sat there and watched. I regret it. I should've got up and done something about it. I know the 'tall' kid, so on Monday I'm going to confront him.

Again

You had to go ruin everything again!?!??! What the actual fuck???? I thought you changed. I thought you learned. I never want to see your stupid, ugly face ever again, you fucking whore.

New Thing

I have this thing on the side, where you can click and it will take you to a page where you can read all my stories or dreams.

Sometime in July 2010 I had this dream....

So basically, kids were living on their own, no parents. I had a "pack", we lived together, took care of each other, we were a family. I happened to be the only girl in the group, so everyone took extra care of me. There were these bad guys, and we were trying to catch them, but we didn't know where they were. There were a bunch of scrambled words on a billboard. Me and the quiet kid figured it out and said, "BEHIND RED MACBOOK PRO." So we decided to go to the apple store building, where they sold those. The bad guys were indeed there. I was like doing parkour and was all ninja and stuff, until I spotted the main group and I froze. One slight movement and I would get caught. I accidentally moved my hand just a tad bit and they saw me and started chasing me, but I got away. Later that night, the "leader" of our pack and I went to go see one of his friends. He was pretty damn hot! He had all black clothes on and long spiky hair (kinda like a Mohawk but not, I can't really explain). He was near this fountain and he had all his stuff set up there, I guess he was too old to be in a pack, and he was alone. I sat down on this edge (not the fountain) and him and the leader were talking in front of me, when he "accidentally" brushed his hand against my knee twice. So I thought to myself, that if he does it again, I will do something about it. When he did, I suddenly, without thinking, grabbed his hand. They keep on talking but he flipped my hand around and started to trace lines on the palm of my hand, with his finger. Whenever his finger touched my palm, it felt like a hot sting. He then lets go of my hand and took the leader to the side to talk quietly. I heard the leader say,"Okay, I'll have her stay," and he left. He turned around and came up to me and took my hand and started to dance. I didn't know how to dance, so I kept looking down so I wouldn't step on his feet. But he took my chin and lifted it up, meaning for me to stop. So I stepped on his foot, and I started to say sorry over and over again, but he waved it off. So I finally got the whole dancing thing down. So then with the hands that were holding mine, he slipped both of them down to my waist, and I wrapped my hands around his neck. Then in a really quick move, he pulled me up really close so our noses were touching, and he kissed me.

Coming Soon

Soooo I'm going to make a page for my dreams. This is mainly for me, because I want to remember my dreams, and I don't wanna write them somewhere where my parents can see, and I also wanna share them with you guys, cause I have some really kick ass dreams. *EDIT* I'm gonna post them on the normal home page but then there will be a thing on the side or top where you can click for my dreams, stories,.....

Chapter 3

           So there I was, sketching in my notebook, like I always do in first period, when the teacher calls on me. Ohhhhh shit! I don't even know the fuck that's going on here. Everyone was staring at me and I felt my face getting really hot, but then I look on the board and I saw the question, it was a review from our homework, so I answered it and I got it right. The teacher is always picking on me because I never pay attention in class, yet I still manage to get straight A pluses on all her tests. Also, I look like I live in Hot Topic, so she's probably just being judgmental. Everyone's attention went back to the board except one person. Darren, the most amazing boy that I have ever met. He has blazing blue eyes, straight dark hair, and the most perfect smile ever. He's funny and immature, but smart and serious at times. He sits in front of me and I can smell his cologne from here, it's amazing. He's the reason why I wake up every morning, excited, to go to school. He smiled and said, "Nice save." and then turned back around. He gives me butterflies in my stomach, just by looking at me. I haven't even really actually talked to him before, but, you know. I just don't know what to say to him, I'm a very shy person. RRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNGGG! The bell for first period rang and I was getting my stuff into my backpack, I didn't fully zip it up, because my class was on the other side of the school, and I would be late. I got up and started to walk out of the room when something tripped me, and made me fall on my face and make everything in my backpack spill out. I looked up and saw Marissa and her group laughing at me. That bitch tripped me on purpose! I start to put everything in my backpack when Darren bends down and starts to help me. He picked up my sketchbook that was laying open on the ground and started looking through the drawings. "Wow, you're a really good drawer." he said. I was so nervous, but I managed to choke out a thanks before it got awkward. He stopped at a picture of a good looking guy. "I like this one the best" he said. I wonder if he noticed that the drawing was based off of him. He put the notebook in my backpack and helped me up. Then he smiled at me and said goodbye, and I couldn't help but blush so much. On my way out, Marissa pulled me over and said, "I hope you know that he doesn't like you, he just feels sorry for you."

            "I don't give a fuck!" I snapped and I walked away.

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All Time Low insulted on 92.3

So it was yesterday, when a new All Time Low single was released and it's awesome (Download Here)! A lot of people were trying to get it on the radio, so they kept texting and calling the radio station, so they would play it. However, when they played it, they also threw in a bunch of nasty and unnecessary comments that, me as a fan, hurt my feelings, a lot. You can watch a video on YouTube that has the entire thing here. So on tumblr, I saw someone emailed the radio station a very strongly worded letter, so I decided to do the same thing, and I want you guys to please send them an email saying how rude they were and that self harm is not a joke here. It would mean a lot.

So I have this teacher.....

she has a stuffed cat made out of real human hair, and some round thingy made out of cow? She has a giant picture of the statute of liberty that covers the entire fucking wall. We went to this We The People competition and you have to dress up but she was wearing a long skirt or dress? with a Jean jacket over it, and she said WE were embarrassing. She has this strange obsession over horses and if you click your pen once, you get a detention. She can't hear shit, and she can't "see" bright red, orange, yellow, green, blue, or purple on a black background. If we put on lotion, we have to wash it off, and if we come into class after P.E. we HAVE to wash our faces. She never finishes any project we start, and if we do and we haven't gotten a chance to present yet, you get an F in her class. She hasn't taught us anything in the eight months we have been in her class, because she doesn't know shit so when we ask her something, she makes us look it up. Plus she can't say her H's. For example, instead of huge she says "uge", instead of human she says "uman". She always tells us to be organized, however, she is anything but. And we can't switch out of her class because tons of people switched out of her class in the beginning of the year so all the other classes are full.

Not The American Average by Asking Alexandria

"1, 2, 3, 4! (All the things that she said, was it all in my head?) Come on, baby, Keep it down. Honey, hush your lips. Clothes trailing From the backdoor To the bedroom And I don't even know your name.(woah!) Give me all you've got. Make this night worth my time, Make this worth my time (oh!) What I would give to live this night again! I knew when I first saw you, You'd fuck like a whore! You'd fuck like a whore! Hope they hear you scream for more! (yeah!) Your thighs were made for cheeks to graze. My lips, your poison, They bring you to your knees. [x2] Ah, come on! Girl, get down, It's almost over! Take it all the way! Oh! You stupid fucking whore! And after all of all my dreaming being only you, You're standing there, baby, oh, The things that I could do! Back to the wall with a drink in my hand! Back it up, baby, ride, ride, ride! One step too late And I never told you That I can't take Another disappointment. Breathing and grasping all leads to another messy ending. Breathing and grasping all leads to another messy ending. Ten inch! With your back against the wall! With your face buried in the pillow! I see you cold! I feel you heartless! Bitch! You stupid fucking bitch! You stupid fucking bitch! Fucking bitch."

Tehe :3

Awesome hair(all or partially dyed hair) + Piercings + Tattoos + Band Tees + Skinny Jeans + Vans + Gages = sex appeal

Rant

I really don't wanna move! I planned everything out for high school! I was going to apply for an ivy league school. But no, because of you, my mom has no job and I have to get out of the house, as soon as possible. I don't wanna go to some crappy school, I want to go to a good school, where I can actually learn stuff. Plus I have friends going there, I won't have any fucking friends when I move. Finally I felt like I belonged somewhere, but no you just had to ruin everything! I swear if I move, I will become so fucking anti-social, I'll refuse to make any friends and I'll stay home on the weekends, because I wouldn't have a life. I wouldn't care about how I looked and I'd just die on the inside, until the day you commit suicide, because I know that day is coming. You know, the day when you realize you're all alone, the day your stupid friend finally leaves you, the day your mom dies and your dad goes to jail for life, the day no one wants anything to do with this psycho who just keeps making my life hell by cutting the phone line, the laundry cords, the Internet and tv and turning off all our power and trying to kick us out of the house. I hope you know that I never want to fucking see your face ever again. You're not even considered family to me anymore. And you really need to go to a mental hospital, because you've got manic depression but you're in denial, which is one of the symptoms.

Invisible Non-Social Loser

I'm so fucking invisible, I swear not even the losers know my name! That's so sad. I'm not a very social person but I've been in your class for 8 months and you still don't know my name! What the fuck is wrong with you, I've been carpooling with you the entire year and you don't know my name(different person)! But I guess that's partly my fault because I'm so not social, like how do you even start a conversation? I can't do that! I'm too awkward.

But you know, like my friend said, "I don't need to flirt, I can seduce you with my awkwardness."

Chapter 2

I got home from school and opened the front door, the lights were off, that meant Dad must have been late again. I went up to my room and started blasting Get Scared from the stereo. I turned on my laptop and went to the bathroom to take off my make-up while it loaded. When I got back to my laptop, I signed in to Twitter and Tumblr to see what's going on. Nothing, as usual, ever since school started, no one got on anymore. So I started to do my homework. Believe it or not, I'm actually kind of smart. Straight A's and I'm in an AP class as a freshman. I'm planning to go to Harvard, you know if I don't slack off again like eighth grade. After I finished, I looked at the clock, 11:00PM, and still no sign of Dad, so I decided to go to sleep. I think it was sometime between 1:00AM and 2:00AM, but my Dad came home. I heard him come into my room, then leave. He sounded tired. His job is too complicated to explain but let's just say his boss is an ass-whole, but hey I get to live in this mansion right?

Judgmental People and Labels

Judgmental people, I dislike them, but then again, I'm one of em. Labels, I hate them, but then again, I use em. If there was no such things as prejudice people, I would have so much more confidence. But face it, we live in a world filled with prejudice people, its not like I can change it. I just try to be nice and open to anyone, why can't more people be like that? Btw there is no such word as prejudism, I think. I wish it was a real word so I could use it.